A place to come home to..
Saturday, August 15, 2009
sun set at 9:06 PM


ok I'm really working already, working hard because if I fail, I will end up losing many things which I cannot afford losing. I will not be left back, whatever it takes!


Thursday, August 13, 2009
sun set at 10:24 PM


I absolutely cannot let it happen... please... I beg of me...


Monday, August 10, 2009
sun set at 10:27 PM


Look at the state of my blog! It's really pathetic, been kinda dead for a while, haha. Well, for all it's worth, I'm gonna post something now, cause every post is like a heartbeat, and too long no 'heartbeat' then it's like ________________no pulse=dead. But after this post it'll be like _________________^

Haiz, this long weekend has officially gone, and wasted! I was pretty much rotting at home, yep, it's those lonely emo days again, sianz. Think I got no life, pathethic. I shold be going out an having fun during this rare fleeting break from schooling, now it's gone and the full force of JC life will be back once again. But whenever I even think of enjoying myself, this auto-conscience within me will trigger and tell me: "What makes you think you deserve to enjoy yourself? Look at you, crappy grades; and your friends can laugh and play all they want cause they've got decent grades, not like you, who's down for supplementary study programme." Man, seriously, I wish my life wasn't trapped like this. I wish I could lead an easygoing, balanced life that I need not worry about my grades while having fun. Haiz, how did I end up like this, this is horrible. It's so hard to set things right again at this point. I always have had to work harder than everyone else to achieve the same results, at least, that's what I feel.

Yes, I'm inadequate, I am weak. But the Lord is my strength, and I will rely not on my strength but His alone. My life is in His hands and He will see me through all things according to his will. Therefore, i will boast of my weakness, because only when I am weak can I be strong in the Lord Almighty, who is my Heavenly Father. Amen.

Hmm, dunno why but the paragraph above just ran hrough my head and my hands just typed it out. Yea, it kinda spoke to me, and it shall be my prayer and my hope that shall sustain me for the coming days. Hope that it encourages you out there too, whoever still visits this desolate blog and reads this, haha =)smiles~