A place to come home to..
Sunday, June 28, 2009
sun set at 9:51 PM


Terms exams tmr, taking it head on!


Saturday, June 27, 2009
sun set at 9:33 PM








This anime... brought me to tears 4 times...



I'll never forget Dango Daikazoku... ...

Dango, dango, dango, dango

Dango, dango, daikazoku~




Watched ge concert yesterday. How I felt deep down watching the concert, nobody can fully express and describe in words, not even me...

Anyway, that aside, great concert! Ahaha, yea, just as expected from GECO!! Haha, thought the erhus sound great, the lush sound playing as one was fantastic, and the percussion piece was cool, haha, and unique too! I think I really missed a great deal! Great job on the concert everyone! After all, y'all worked really hard! All of you deserves a toast for the great effort =)


Friday, June 19, 2009
sun set at 10:38 PM


Watched my first horror movie in the cinema today! Drag Me To Hell! Woo, what an accomplishment for me, hahaha!

Not bad of a show, or rather, experience, haha. Really loud movie though, it's the stupid eerie music that made the show, haha. But not bad lah, classic horror movie, lotsa shocking scenes like some unexpected stuff really got me, haha. Quite fun watching with my OG, it's like a scare-laugh-scare-laugh run, haha! Nice one!

Hai, feel so guilty, soo many outings and haven't been doing equally much work.. Muz pia already, yep!



Thursday, June 18, 2009
sun set at 9:01 AM


Just finished 3 days of cip at the National Museum, and it's definitely the best cip I've ever done! I'll definitely come back to serve there again, cause it is such a nice place to serve in - super cool and comfortable working environment, friendly staff...

So basically, there are different 'jobs' you can do there, like doing pick up, drop off, patrol, playing movie, maintanence, admin etc.

For pick up, you'll be stationed at the main entrance to the Singapore History Gallery to receive visitors. You'll also need to hand them an GSM audio device called the 'Companion' A.K.A very big iPod (cause it looks like an iPod, bigger than your palm) that acts as their audio guide for the history gallery. There'll be numbers tags on the floors at different sections of the history gallery, and all you have to do is to key in the number in your 'Companion' and it'll play an audio describing to you more about the exhibit. Cool right? Haha.

For Drop off, basically you'll be stationed at the drop off point/near the exit of the history gallery where the visitors will return you the 'Companions' before they leave. So you just like sit at the counter waiting for people to come, haha. Of course, you have to offer assistance to visitors if required.

Behind the drop off counter is the maintanence room. There are also shelves inside for the 'Companions', just slot them in and it'll charge the battery, yea pretty neat! Yep, so for maintanance or 'production works', you have to make sure the 'Companions' are charging, identify faulty 'Companions', and constantly re-supply, as in bring up a batch of freshly charged 'Companions', as well as the headphones, on a specialised 'Companion' storage trolley to the pick up point.

Patrolling the gallery is fun too! Basically is to make sure that everything is alright in the galleries, for instance picking up litter, making sure no flash-photography (cause some artefacts are sensitive to light), ensuring that the visitors do not eat or touch the exhibits, as well as helping any visitors with any queries or if they encounter any problems with their 'Companions'.

There is this small theathre playing a short 10 minute clip illustrating 14th century Singapore near the entrance of the histrory gallery. At least two of us will be stationed there to usher visitors in to wach the clip, close the doors and play the video. Super fun, haha! sitting in the dark pressing butttons, lol!

Yep, so the overall experience is vey enjoyable and at the same time enriching as we get to learn about a lot of things through hands-on work. You'll get to learn stuff that an ordinary visitor wouldn't be able to know, and working there means free access to all the galleries so you can freely explore on your own! You can also enter certain places with 'Authorised Personel Only' signs , haha!

Oh, and the staff there are super nice, they'll make sure that you're well fed, haha keep treating us to snacks and food. They'll also share with us about their working experience, ESPECIALLY on how things come to live at night! Seriously, but not as in the atrefacts and exibits come to live, but as in ghost. Yea, the staffs all told me it's very common in the museum at night to have those encounters, they night guards get it a lot, like they see things flying around, hear footsteps in the dark gallery when there's nobody there in the middle of the night, get slapped on the back while patrolling, hear things, and see those things. Right after we finished our cip on our 3rd and last day, the staff in charge of us told us that there is a little boy running around in the movie screening area in the history gallery at night, and that she had personally felt his presence. When he's around, the buttons wouldn't wrok, as in the doors won't close when you press the button and the movie won't play, and they've ruled out the posibility of a technical failure! Omg, it's super eerie! Cause I kept hanging around the movie area there, but luckily always got people there, haha. Oh, I tell you, patrolling the dimly lit histary gallery on your own is NO JOKE, especially near the coffin area as well as the Japanese occupation section. I got chills running down my spine when I passed there by myself on several occasions. I confirmed with the staff that that's one of the 'hotspots' at night, if you know what I mean... Haha, maybe I'll attach myself to the night shift the next time I do cip there!

Night at the Museum indeed!


Monday, June 15, 2009
sun set at 12:40 AM


Today has been a blessing. I don't know know to express my feelings, but it runs deep... ...

I really enjoyed myself today, it has been a long day, and the whole process of seeing the concert through has been even longer - to see all that work amount to such a wonderful concert and an unforgettable experience for me today just feels absolutely breathtaking! Though there were hiccups along the way, and that I did not perform to my best on stage tonight (expected -.-), I was quickly able to put these minor setbacks aside and kept looking forward as I knew that to expect perfection is unrealistic. Yep, so that's that for the concert, I think the repertoire's good - has quite a diverse range of music of different genres/styles and I really love it. It has been nostalgic for me performing 飞天 as it is my sec 1 SYF choice piece. 龙腾虎跃 has been truly exhilarating! I finally learned how to play the 大鼓 as well as the timpani parts! The Great Verdigris Bell is the piece that won my heart, truly, I don't know why but I feel emotionally attached to that song, and to me, it is a representation of what I have been through in the process of this entire concert - those good moments I have spent with my friends, especially my wonderful percussion section mates, alumni (Yuting, Jacinda and Marilyn), J2s and all, I will never forget. I never had such great, fun, understanding and caring seniors before, I just realised that, and I'm so glad they came into my life. Those fond memories are etched in side my heart, and whenever I listen to the tune of The Great Verdigris Bell I will be absorbed into a sweet recollection of those very special, fun-filled times we shared together. Aww, it just kinda hurts thinking so much about it now. Nostalgia is setting in. I'll miss a lot of people (alumni, J2 seniors), things will never be the same without them. I know that it is time for the J1s to step up, take the lead and create our own legacy, but oh man right know I'm just not feeling like I'm up to it yet. I'm still reminiscence mode, and I need time to recover. Haiz, time really flies, in a flash it's all over.

Thanks to everyone who came for the concert! That'd be the GE peeps (thanks for the chocolate and cereal! Really appreciate it!), and some of my classmates of 1SB3 (thanks for the rose! first time getting a flower, haha really nice:), as well as the rest of my friends for your support! Thanks for all your well wishes too! Thank you logistics team for working with me to make the entire process a success, as well as our teachers-in-charge for their guidance and help. Thank the Lord for this opportunity.

Well, better get some rest..


Friday, June 5, 2009
sun set at 11:59 PM


Back to me ol' self I guess. Yokata, what a relief... ...

Yep, dropped out of GE concert, thanks to a bunch af people who really cared and helped. I must say, this decision was a tough one to make: sacrificing a concert just like that, no one would want to do that unless it just cannot be helped. Yea, thought real hard about it, what I'll be missing and all, but in the end, I had to do it, most regrettably. Therefore, I will not gu1 fu4 the effort of my friends that went out of the way beyong understanding to help me, to settle things and cover for me in my absence; I will study hard!! Here's my new schedule for 4th week:

Mon-thurs: MUG
Fri: MUG + Attend GE concert at night*

Yep, I've become a member of the audience =)

All the best to everyone preparing for the concert! And all the best to me, I guess. 1 week isn't much, but it's better than nothing; I'll make do with it and change my fate with it. It is no ordinary week though, it has much sentimental value to it, cause it's special: time that has been bought for me. I will make use of that time well.

And so, a BIG THANK YOU to everyonne who cared in one way or another; you've showed me something else - something that nobody can see. It exist.

Mark my words, I will be back! Muhuahahahaha... (well if the doors are still open:) If not I'll still be back, for GE fried rice i think...

HAIZZZZ... ... I can finally sigh in peace -.-


Wednesday, June 3, 2009
sun set at 8:10 PM


This post is meant for my GE friends to understand my position. Do not take any offence in anything I type here, it is purely an expression of my pent up feelings. The "you"s does not refer to any person or persons in particular. I'm just talking to air.

Okay, let me explain. First of all, I would really like to perform for GE concert and like really focus and give my commitment to it, if I can. But I can't. Thus, I had actually decided to quit the concert. My rationale is this: IF I can't commit for most practices I should withdraw from the concert so as not to affect the rest of the orchestra.

First 2 weeks of June I'm occupied with my ACCO concert preparations, plus I'm in charge of logistics, for both concert and ACCO camp, which I have to organize on the second week. SO I'm already pretty tied up. Furthermore, I have a compulsory class initiated CIP on the whole 3rd week of June where I have to serve in the museum - I'll receive training on Monday and have to serve on most of the rest of the weekdays. So there goes my third week. So to begin with, I will miss a lot of GE pracs during the first thre weeks. Then the last week everyday GE prac from morning till night, HOW DO I STUDY FOR MY TERM EXAMS WHICH IS 2 DAYS AFTER GE CONCERT???!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

You know what, I really hate to go back on my word, cause I signed some GE form/namelist thingy beside my name to come for all GE pracs leading to the concert. That was quite some time ago, somewhere in early April, if I recall correctly. Then the GE hols schedule just came out in late May, AND I REALLY CANNOT COMMIT! Okay so I thought since this was the case, I would opt to quit the concert. Okay I went through Sherry, she said it's fine so long it's my decision, BUT I CANT GO THROUGH ZLS!! I really explained to him already, but I JUST CAN'T QUIT! Though percussion is not lacking of people, he say what "this is a good opportunity blah blah blah... dun worry... the practices won't be that harsh... I can let you off for a few pracs..." Yea I doubt so. I think that's just unrealistic, 花言巧语. AIYAH, IT'S JUST REALLY IMPOSSIBLE TO INSIST ON MY STAND TO QUIT THE CONCERT WITHOUT DISRESPECTING HIM!

You know, I'm really ok if he doesn't want me to quit, I wish to say something like: " Oh, ok since you don't let me quit and I have a lot of other commitments already, I won't come for practices but I'll appear on Concert day and assure you that I know my parts." RUBBISH! It just won't work out that way. If I do that, won't I just be the "certain irresponsible people who don't turn up for practices and affect the rest of the CO"? They always say that. Of course I know the importance each member is, but WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?? FIRSTLY I CANT QUIT, THEN IF I MISS ALOT OF PRACS CERTAIN PEOPLE WILL BE PISSED!

I'm sure my friends would understand my absence, but not everyone in GE are really my friends. Can't deny that people will find it irritating if this guy doesn't come for practices when concert is so near. I mean if I am the conductor of course I won't be feeling good also!

Okay, so as of know, since my attempt to quit the concert failed last friday, I had no choice but to 'NEGOTIATE' with sherry regarding which practices she can 'let me off'. Okay, so first two weeks I'll come on friday nights, then 3rd week I am required to come for at least 3 practices, and the last week is to be confirmed, for now. BUT the catch is, my class initiated CIP is confirmed today, SO AS I"VE MENTIONED EARLIER ABOUT MY SCHEDULE FOR 3RD WEEK, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO MAKE IT FOR 3 PRACTICES??? SERVING IN THE MUSEUM IS A WHOLE DAY THING! WHAT, AT NIGHT I RUSH TO GE AR?? I'M NOT HUMAN ISIT??? HOW AM I GOING TO TELL SHERRY???? I ALREADY FEEL VERY BAD SKIPPING SO MANY PRACS ALREADY AND I WANT TO ASK FOR MORE ALLOWANCE????? THEN THE LAST WEEK IS CONCERT WEEK JUST HOW MANY PRACTICES DO YOU THINK GE WILL LET ME OFF?? THEN I NO NEED TO STUDY ALREADY LA!!! AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Term exams is very important, if I don't catch up with my work in the June holidays when am I going to? When Term 3 starts there'll be new topics to be covered, then it's PROMOS EXAM! If my foundation is not good I will surely retain!!! Okay, so my first three weeks of June holidays I have excuse to justify myself for not coming for a lot of pracs. What about 4th week? My only excuse is "I have to study for Terms." Yea, I can already imagine a reply: "You think you are the only student in GE isit? Other people no need to study ar?" Okay, this may just be my speculation of a possible ungracious remark if I ask for leave in the 4th week, but let me just say this: "You think you can take advantage of me isit? Just because I'm a person with a conscience and morals then you can bend words into sarcasm and make me feel guilty inside with that sentence? I'm sorry, it may have worked on me before, but not this time. I have to stand up to my boundaries as a person. DON'T COMPARE ME WITH OTHER STUDENTS! I KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO DO!"

My holidays are gone, spent even before it's over. It's just too much la, I will get crushed under the weight. Ironic isn't it, that I can get so stressed during the 'holidays'. What ever happened to my responsibility as a student to manage my studies?

I already feel bad enough for thinking of leaving my GE friends.Want me come for GE? Fine. I can only guarantee a less than half commitment, which I think is pathetic. Still want me to come, ok for the sake of my friends and my dignity as a person. But don't you dare speak behind my back saying that I'm irresponsible and hopeless by saying "some people ar... ...sigh". I'm already trying my best, don't push me with your indifference. I have already made my stand very clear. Any clearer, come talk to me face to face. I won't be gracious to those who aren't so to me. Try me.

Forgive me. I really hate this side of me. I'm already torn in two... ... How many more pieces do I have to be torn into?